String of Failures

She strikes at you when you least expect it

You might be left humming happily or totally devastated

The scientists relate such an event to the brains

The artists, to the heart

Like the rain

She may be dismal or torrential

                                Memory...

For me,

Its the unprecedented weather

The sip of the freshly brewed coffee

The quest to forage for food in the middle of the night

The thought of tantalizing gastronomy

And being hungry together 

The presence of comfort

Uncertainties

Determination

A sense of belonging

Reflections of not only the moon in the pond

The rush, the activities and the upbeat

The diversity of my companions

 You resurface from my memory lane

 Stop it!

Memory memory, you are failing me...

The World Robbed My Soul

The World Robbed My Soul

I know it's been long but there is so much going on in my life everyday and i am just too lazy to post each and every one of these occasions. I might post an outline of interesting encounters over the past few months in a couple of weeks though.

Basically, i am currently reading Bachelors of Medicine/ Bachelors of Surgery (MBBS) in Monash University. I barely scrapped through that. Thank GOD! New environment, new friends who are awesome! I believe 5 years is too short a period of time to spend with them but i shall cherish every moment i ll have with this dynamic group of people.

Back to the post*

"I pray for those who are in need, for those who are suffering, and even for those i see in newspapers and feel very sorry for. I pray for my family, my relatives and my friends and i really hope that everything will turn out well for them. I don't mind even if it means that i have to suffer as long as the others are happy and well"

- That WAS ME... a couple of years ago.

Life, in general was simple. I genuinely hoped for the betterment of people in general and i was quite selfless.

"I pray that i can pass my exams and hopefully excel in them, i pray that i could be extraordinary, that i will be someone some day, that i will have a beautiful family, that i will be successful, that i will be rich and bla bla bla, the list goes on..."

- This IS ME NOW.

There's so much to catch up with in life that i do not even know what i am chasing after anymore. Is this what life is all about? An endless chase? Something new will arise after we have achieved something. I used to wince at this thought, proudly thinking that i won't fall into this category, that i would not succumb to peer pressure, that i will always be true to myself. But is this so? I doubt so now. I doubt myself. I feel that sometimes, i say things for the "formality" of it. I lost the sense and essence of being genuine. I lost... me.

When i was young i used to wonder why people would change over time. I was pretty confident that i am strong enough to constantly remind myself to always be humble and selfless but over time, from one aim to another, i begin to think more of myself than of the others. My surroundings have tempted me to change and i followed blindly. I realised that simplicity had seeped out of me and sophistication had crept in and i don't want this to happen. I don't want to be a hypocrite.

I guess i should just stop aiming and return back to basics. But it certainly won't be easy and i might not succeed. Thus, i would like to apologize if i have disappointed any of you. Just so you know, i am disappointed of myself.